Guest Blogger: Dori Hillestad Butler

by Edgar Award Winning Author Dori Hillestad Butler

Dori Hillestad Butler won the 2011 Edgar Award for Best Juvenile Mystery for The Buddy Files: The Case of the Lost Boy. She accepted the award at a gala banquet last week in New York City.


Ever since I found out I had a book nominated for an Edgar Award back in January, I’ve been telling everyone, “I know it’s a cliche, but I’m happy just having a book nominated. Really, I am!”

I think my husband got tired of hearing it because when we first arrived in New York last week, he said, “Oh, come on. You want to win! I know you do!”

Well, of course I wanted to win. Part of me REALLY wanted to win. Part of me wanted to win so badly that I couldn’t even allow myself to consider the possibility that I might win because I couldn’t face the disappointment of not winning.

But there was another part of me that really didn’t want to win. Part of me wanted to keep that dream alive somewhere in the distant future, so I’d have something to keep reaching toward.

I’ve never dreamed of winning a Newbery. Really, I haven’t. But I have dreamed of winning a state children’s choice award (did that in Maryland in 2007 with Trading Places with Tank Talbott). And I’ve dreamed of winning an Edgar. I’ve dreamed of winning an Edgar since I was fourteen years old.

Now that I have both the children’s choice award and the Edgar, I’ve been asking myself, “where do I go from here?” What do you do when you’ve achieved the highest honor you’ve ever dreamed of?

Michelle in Marketing says, “write another book.”

But it’s not that simple.

My husband says, “pick a new dream.”

I don’t know…a dream is something you just have. You don’t pick out a new one the way you might pick out a china pattern.

Then while I was putting the finishing touches on a speech I gave at the Des Moines Public Library this week, I realized something. I don’t write to win awards. I write to make sense of the world…I write because I want to turn non-readers into readers…I write because I can’t NOT write (I learned this eleven years ago when I seriously considered giving up the writing to go back to school and become a nurse midwife).

There’s nothing more satisfying to me than to receive a letter from a child that says something along the lines of “I never liked reading until I read your book.” Or a letter from a parent that says, “your book is the first book my child read all by herself.”

When I think about that, I realize my job isn’t finished. I have more books to write. More readers to connect with. And life is lived in the day to day, between the big moments (like winning an Edgar).

Maybe I should remember the dream I had as a six-year-old rather than the dream I had as a fourteen-year-old. The dream I had as a six-year-old was to “be a awther.” I’m living my dream.

(BTW, if you really want to read the raw, starstruck, can’t-believe-it-really-happened post (with pictures), go to

Guest Blogger: Dori Hillestad Butler

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  1. Yup. Keep writing. Keep connecting. You could also dream about acquiring an identical twin Edgar for your mantle. The first one could be named “Buddy-Boy” in honor of the book and the series.

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